EnterTheShadows

So I write these journals for myself, so that someday I can look back and know what I was doing. Plus, it's a lot easier to spill your innermost secrets to a group of random internet strangers than people who might know you, in case someone does come across this. My life has gone rapidly downhill and I feel like I cannot stop it. The harder I try to fix it, the worse it becomes. But I am still trying. Over the last three months, I have fallen in love, been in the ER twice, tried to kill myself and very nearly succeeded, allowed my mother to read my book, had post-traumatic stress disorder, been imprisoned in a psych ward, had my heart broke

So I decided it was time to update my journal. First off, I have been crazy busy with school, but the semester is at last over. I just have a reading and one easy test on Monday, and then I'm free for the summer. I'm looking to get a second job. I would still like to continue working with the horses. Speaking of horses, we recently had a little colt born last Saturday. His name is Catcall. Hopefully another one came or will come soon. I have been writing quite a few poems, especially having a creative writing class, but I haven't liked them enough to upload them on here. I also have sad news. A lot of my poetry is no longer sad. For one thi

So before I go to bed, I thought I'd update my journal. I've been very busy. Now that the weather has finally warmed up, I've been spending time with Aerabella. I also rescued another fish, and I may be getting a job petsitting a puppy. I'm looking forward to Spring Break, even though I'll have plenty of homework to continue doing. Skillet will never be the same. Ben is leaving. :'( Also, one of my coworkers is leaving, so I may have to leave, since she was the only one who could actually do her job and cover for me if I needed a day off. And I really love my job so this is a hard decision to make. I finally finished editing my book through